b4 aNytHing...

HaPpY BiRthDaY DeNnIs!

i noe i'm not suppose to blog....but something just disturbed my soul.
i am really disappointed on what is happening around me.
REALLY DISAPPOINTED.
i just don't understand it.

*tears*

i came back from school. feeling REALLY tired. did everything that is necessary. My mom accused me of something which i NEVER do. And i blew up. Raised my voice. And i got cursed by her. Really got cursed. She said something that really hurts my soul. It really HURTS. I am emotionally disturbed. I just don't get it.

What is happening to the people around me.
Or issit Me??
ahh!

Another thing.

I came home early that day...i was super sick. What do you expect? And i was SUPER late for school. I reached school at 11am. And i went home at 3pm. My mom went like,

'Did you go to school or not?'

and i said i did go to school. i thought it was a normal thing...but when she kept repeating the question again and again. i sensed something is wrong. I didn't told her i was sick that is the reason why i went back home early.

Dont really see the point of telling people that i'm sick.
i mean who cares whether i'm sick or not.
SERIOUSLY
WHO CARES??

Moving on. After that. My brother went to tell me that my mom did not believe what i told her. I felt a stab in my heart. I have thought of being a good child and go home early. But she REALLY spoils it. I mean. she REALLY spoils it.

From that day onwards...

i pledged; not going home early anymore.

I even TOLD my brother,
From that day...
i will make sure i reach the doorstep at 11pm sui-sui.

So nowadays, i have been going home late. At Night. I'm not sure if some of my friends notice that. I don't see the point on reaching home early anymore. I would rather stay in school and do my own things than reaching home early. I have changed. But never will i be a wild daughter. Which is a good thing.

Think about it.
Why do some people behave this way?
There MUST be a reason behind it.

*tears*

People see me as a cheerful girl. But they just don't know. I don't share any probs with people. Just keep it to myself. Never will i leak it out till the day come. It is really painful. You will NEVER understand what i'm going through until you experience it yourself. And yes the secrets i kept will ALWAYS be with me.

I will be going home late mom. But i will not forget my duty as a Muslim. You have caused me to be like this. I know it is not right to blame others. But some things really have to go the way it should be.

I am Pissed Off.

Till now.
NO ONE understands me.
NOT Even the close ones.

You think you know me??
Well think again.

*RuNniNg ReALLy hELps CLearIng thE nEgatIve th0uGHts AwaY.*
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