Wednesday, October 31, 2007
 bEsTiE! i love you! Muackz! (i noe this sounds SO wrong, but...I AM STRAIGHT.) *Friends Forever* Friends forever, Friends till the end, I love you, And our friendship will never end. I'll be by your side, When times get rough, I'll be there for you, When you've had enough. I know this world is cold, But you will be safe with me, For you are my best friend, And I'll never let our friendship end. I'm so glad that I have found you, I thought my world was coming to an end, But then you came around, And now we are best friends. There's a point in your life when you get tired of trying to fix everything and trying to make everyone happy. When you finally decide to quit, it's not giving up. It's realising you don't need certain people and the bullshit they bring to your life. It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not. look at those two quotes/poems/whatever you want to call it. i stripped this while i was blog-hopping. those two poems really hit me hard in the head right down to my soul. some people are whining over their gf/bf for being such a jackass... while some are enjoying their life with their partners... a bunch just hate not being in a r/s... and others just live life to the fullest by being single. which category are you in? wells...actually...i think...Each and everyone of us went thru most of it. *first stage* 'deprived' of having a r/s =monkey see monkey do= You see people in r/s, being 'oh-so-sweet', you also want to be in one too... *second stage* got a guy whom you admire/had crush on, to be your bf/gf eveything seems so sweet you saw the beautiful scenes of life *third stage* you begin to see each other's weaknesses saw their true colours. whine about it. *forth stage* you cant seem to take it anymore... fights arose. & results in break-ups *fifth stage* & u're back to square one. being single. *last stage* you either find another guy/girl & decide to be a play-girl/guy- or had enough of it...& stay single for your entire life some just treat it as part & parcels of life & continue to search for a better one others just concentrate on other things in life. i've noticed this trend. those who has a gf/bf tends to be ungrateful. while those who doesn't, craves for having one. others don't seem to bother. sometimes. this is life. you want it, you go for it. you have it, you treasure it. you dont want it, you kick it away. you don't have it, you search for it. but if u're unsure abt it, just FORGET about it. *living in a pretentious life* you can pretend, but for how long? you WILL soon get bored of it. & everything will come to an end. you want to be accepted in the society by pretending? society will accept you.. but not for long. once they find out the truth, you'll regret it for the rest of your life. but those who are smart enough, they will get away with it. ShImA ♥ disguised at { 10:15 PM } Tuesday, October 30, 2007 my com lag sia...lyk tiz is soo rare... ok.. went home by bus... i realised that long bus ride makes me sick. suddenly i had a stomach ache. & that ALWAYS happen when my stomach is empty. it hurts lyk HELL. i cursed e wrong person today. wah haiz. made a BIG mistake. someone at home sms-ed me using e home phone... n e person was cursing me...all e words in caps summore. & i was shocked & furious abt it la... so i sms-ed e person back....cursing him whom i thought was my brother. i reached home & asked him why he had to curse me. then he told me...it wasnt him. and you wanna noe who?? it was my blardy sis. WTF?! i had wrongly accused someone who is innocent. then he told me to check first b4 accusing. (that was my weak point...i liked to jump into conclusion.) & i cursed my sis for being rude. i mean..i was in e middle of lecture... when she started scolding me to pick up that effing lil bro. she can be REALLY rude. she treats her bro & me like some PRIMARY school kid where she can scold & curse as and when she like. She will be like a 'big' sister when she's angry. which is a total crap. pls la..u're younger than us...don't act as if you rule the world. to tell you the truth...i used to accept whatever she say to me...by being calm & ignores what she has to say. i was a COMPLETE nerd last time. i dun noe how to curse. i mean really. i just dun noe. but not now uh. when someone who has gone really too far....they will receive the same treatment as they treat the other person. & i realised that when you're too soft, people can step over your head. if you noe what i mean. i am very particular abt people being rude to me. be it my friends, siblings or even my mom. this is about respecting me as a person. if these people just don't give a damn...why should you hold back your angers? yes. it is not advisable to fight back even if that means defending yourself against all accusations... but my question to all... how many of you actually wait for the right time to justify yourself? how many of you wait for the person to calm down before you clarify? how many of you just ignores whatever the other party has to say even if everything that comes out from their mouth is just purely CRAP? how many? i am not surprise if there are none. maybe there are some who will wait for the person to calm down b4 clarifying certain issues with them. i don't know but... i am egoistic by nature.. when someone isn't happy with e things i did, accuse me of what i did not do, or say ANYTHING that will hurt my soul, I WILL go straight to the person...even if that means i will go to the extent of being rude...i mean really rude... when i did that, you can forget about me respecting you even if u're older than me, you can forget about me appologising to you. if i noe i'm right... I AM RIGHT. worse still, you talk behind my back. then. THAT's IT. I am indeed stubborn. i dun hold back my angers. which is not a good thing. & i noe it is not. I'm just being me. yet at the same time...i am NOT/ NEVER a temperamental kind of person. if someone calls themselves as temperamental...that is CRAP. i dun believe in e word "temperamental" itself. People can be angry but not temperamental. Those who regards themselves as being one is just some bastards. these people think that if they are temperamental, they can scare people away. not allowing people to scold them BECAUSE they are temperamental. SO WHAT IF U'RE ONE?? i just think that they have mental problems in accepting people's comments & they could'nt accept e fact that they have to swallow the truth that they are a bunch of idiotic SUCKERS. " people who are feared, are hated. " If we cannot respect another How can we expect them to respect us If we can not respect someone’s beliefs How can we expect them to respect ours If we can not respect another’s race How can we expect that race to respect us If we can not respect others How can we expect respect in return Everyone expects respect No matter who they are The only way to gain it Is to start treating everyone As a friend, a brother, a sister As part of our extended family No matter what colour or creed they are Only then you will start to get The respect you so dearly crave i am not the same as e last me. i saw a sucker when i was going to skul & then again when i was going home. A COMPLETE TURN OF TO MUH SOUL. ShImA ♥ disguised at { 10:30 PM } Monday, October 29, 2007 haiz... i felt like hanging my soul on the lamp post. and rot thr.. lol. haha... i'm not emo-ing... & i think... emo IS effing shit. i personally think that people who considers themselves as -EMO- are just seeking for attention. these people just LOVE attention. or they are just craving for attention. correct me if i'm wrong. people dressed in black, with their hair covering one of their eyes, putting on eye-liners dyed part of their hair in purple/dark red, is just purely crap. i dun deny that some guys who 'claimed' to be emo are good looking which is suppose to be a plus point and they can get away with all e critics NORMAL people have for them.... but those who are'nt just turns me off. (juz some random post) specially for guys. your Girlfriend have NO rights in controlling you like u're some immature bastards. Pls la... U're a guy. When a girl dumps you DONT go back crying/ begging to her to take you back. dun be such a dunderhead. stand on your dignity. if a girl whom u 'loved' had spat on you..don't lick it back. respect urslf & just move on. if you dun respect urslf, u expect people around you to respect you?? FAT HOPE. these people will mock at you for being such a sissy. only REAL friends dun do such a thing. go and count how many REAL friends you have. how many can you put ur trust on? believe me...it is as close as having NONE. think abt it. WHAT IS A FRIEND A friend is someone who understands and someone you can trust. They will listen to you both night and day without ever making a fuss. A friend will stand by your side when you are right and sometimes when you are wrong. They will hold you up when you are weak and provide support to make you strong. A friend's love is unconditional and unique in every way. And when you have problems a true friend will kneel with you and pray. A friend will stand by your side through thick and thin. And whenever everyone have deserted you they still will be your friend. the quote love is blind is true to a certain extent. love can make you go blind coz u forsee their mistakes..& deny that people being people... human beings DO make mistakes... & u constantly tend to say to urslf that they will change. you people have to be realistic la...if things get so bad...dun keep pleasing urslf by being optimistic abt it. dont live in denial. finally i'm talking some sense.... this entry is for people out thr who cant seem to accept the truth. sometimes, truth is really difficult for you to accept it. but you just have to swallow the fact that it IS the truth. SpEciALLy foR YuSraZLini Somewhere the sun is shining, and the clouds are not in sight. Somewhere someone's laughing, and talking about what might. What might have been another year, for us to spend together. What might have been another time, that I could cherish forever. Somewhere two people laugh and joke, and carry on all day. Talk about their past and future, in an extraordinary way. They talk about the last few years, and how they made a bond. They found it funny they both were different, but both especially fond. Fond of each other everyday, so genuine and true. A friend to tell of all your worries, if ever you were blue. To trust with all my secrets, and keeping yours close to heart. Knowing you will comfort me, and sharing all our art. Somewhere the sun is shining, and we will meet again. Become the friends we always were, and talk about what's been. Although you're gone I know you're here, to help me through hard times. Help me make the right decisions, when I don't see the signs. Somewhere the sun is shining, and you will be in my heart. For you were more like a sister to me, and we shall never part. This is the time to let you know, how much I really cared. I love you for you no matter what, and cherish the moments that we shared. ShImA ♥ disguised at { 5:44 PM } Sunday, October 28, 2007 You may think you see Who I really am But you’ll never know me Every day, is as if I play apart Now I see If I wear a mask I can fool the world But I can not fool My heart Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? I am now In a world where I have to Hide my heart And what I believe in But somehow I will show the world What’s inside my heart And be loved for who I am Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? Why is my reflection Someone I don’t know? Must I pretend that i’m Someone else for all time? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? There’s a heart that must Be free to fly That burns with a need To know the reason why Why must we all conceal What we think How we feel Must there be a secret me I’m forced to hide? I won’t pretend that i’m Someone else For all time When will my reflections show Who I am inside? When will my reflections show Who I am inside? ♥ disguised at { 8:23 AM } Saturday, October 27, 2007 She told me that Andrew told her that i've put on weight. OMG. my jaw dropped as soon as i heard that. thatz it. i knew it. i will not eat any more food that will make me grow fatter. eg... *Chocolates* *Sweets* *ice-creams* (i can still take la...but muz control.) i will eat only 1 plate of rice per day. & if i can... i will go to gym & lift weights & run at least 2km 3 times a week. i will make sure ->my double chin is out of sight... ->e bulged tummy is gone & replaced by pecz... (wells...its gonna b toned to b exact.) ->there will be NO flabby arms & it WILL also be toned This is easy to see, But hard to forsee u can say what you want...but an encouragement will still b e best. go on & bet with me...but dun cry after that. u will suffer in the end. TRUST ME thatz it. case close at e moment. *Applause waits on success* ouh wells... actually... now that i've achieved my first stage... which is to gain weight... now its time to move on with e next... which is to lift weights. lurves.. ShImA ♥ disguised at { 5:55 PM } Jan, Fiz, Shafiq, Ameera, Carol, Pat, Rodney, Yk, Nipun Fiona, Gladys & Priya the names i underlined didnt stay & continue with e visiting...they juz went to fiz's house...then went off... lazy to type... show e pics... sorry if my blog is now contaminated with pics yea... ..eNj0yz.. HAfiz's hoUse  Ameera & I...In the toilet. Jan & mE...he's younger than me...by a few mths but he's bigger than me. haiz. Lolz  Ameera & MeThe following pics are taken ALOT of times coz e potential camerawomen ask to move closer & closer... until dunno how close they want us to stand. LoLs. Hafiz & his Plastic face cum smile...       Fadlul & ME Those who went... Us AgaiNIn the bus... Me & gLadys    In the train  Me & e Pole..Lolz.  CaRol + pole = Stress  Ameera, Fiona & CarolCarol + ShIma = Gila Camwhore-r lolz.       Shafiq's hoUse his house SUPER big la...+ SUPER nice.  his bro, Ameera, me & Carole pillow SUPER cute la... itz either a star or a flower. LOLz.           CaRol EXTRA.My FavoUriTe kiNd of ArMcHair... hehe..    I LOVE tis            Ameera's hoUse      lesbianism. aiya gladys...y u nvr join us sia?? if not can have triple *ehem* of lesbianism. lolz.    still waiting sommore pics from people... will add on with more pics as soon as i receive them. (addition)         .jpg) .jpg)  .jpg)                     ShImA ♥ disguised at { 12:19 AM } |
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