:A:
As I list down the possibilities,
Tried to see it from the other view,
Being all optimistic,
Forcing myself to believe it,
But the instincts are saying the opposites.

:B:
As I absorb it all,
Tried to understand the point,
Storing it mentally,
Forcing myself to accept it,
But I’m just struggling.

It doesn’t make much sense.
It just goes hay-wire.

Is it me or is it them?

I tried...

But it all comes down to...
Ignorance... and Wasted efforts... and etc...

Allow the tears to flow
And let it soothe you in the dark, that none can witness.
Refrain yourself from whimpering so that none is able to hear.
Keep it inside that only you know it.
And seal it there that only you feel it.
Accumulate it there....
And one day it’ll burst without you knowing.
That is when the damage is beyond repair.

That is when you realise it’s too late.

Hiatus.

♥ disguised at { 3:24 AM }

Okay. I can’t take it.
Allow me to rant about it.

He, who named himself as Jin Kazama and whose display picture, displays a smug face, pointing his right middle finger towards the camera and his left hand holding on to a bottled beer. Just what is his motive in taking that kind of picture? Hey look people.. I'm a fierce-wannabe-MAT. Hey people look... I drink. Bleah.

Back to my story...
This random mute ‘friend’ decided to add me... and since I’m a nice person... I accepted his request.

After this incident... I swear to god I detest this type of Mat to the core of my soul... and what I labelled them as Nak-Step-Fierce-Macam-Paham-Mat.

Okay. Let me explain my point.

How is it polite having a random ‘friend’ whom you don’t even know, coming to your notes and Caps Lock his comment? Who the hell is he to make such comment? Yeah2... it’s a free world and everyone has the freedom to say whatever shit they want to anyone on this earth. Bleah.

And yeah... I cannot accept those comments which I considered rude.

And he said this after I replied to his sarcasm.

And 3 young ladies likes it.. watever.

It’s either he doesn’t understand the note... or trying to be sarcastic. Let us assume that he really doesn’t understand it... Maybe it's due to his poor understanding of English... which is kind of expected.. this kind of people.. only know how to react based on what they feel and being all irrational. oopz. I don’t see the point in capitalising his comment. At first, I thought maybe it’s his way in commenting... coz some people have the habit to caps lock their words. But no... as I looked at his other comments at his profile.. He doesn’t have that habit and thus...I’m very sure it’s sarcasm.

How is it fanatic by replying that way? And sadly my siblings took his side. And of course I had to rebut. But of course I lost to them too...coz they know more than I do. But I did see things from their point... I did realise that my words did seem to be fanatic... BUT only to those who don’t know me well enough. Maybe I don’t mix around with typical Malay people like those Mat’s and Minah’s that much or I don’t even mix with them at all and so I don’t know what is so fanatic about the statement that I made... And I’m figuring out the actual definition of their ‘fanatic’.

Typical Fanatic Incidents

A stares at B. B gets all worked up and walks up to A and said, ‘what stare stare.’ with a tone that shows aggression.
That is fanatic.

B is unhappy... calls up all his/her gang members to come down to confront and then beat up A.
That is fanatic.

A hate-tagger tags at a C’s blog... and criticized with all vulgarities comes into set. C replied with much sarcasm... Things got ugly. Hate-tagger invites C to meet up with hate-tagger (vice versa) to fight.
That is fanatic.

D talks as if he owns the world.
That is fanatic.

E cannot accept small mistake... turns everything into a big fuss, involving those whose not involved in the first place.
That is fanatic.

But whatever it is... I know myself...and I’m not being fanatic.

I have a thing when it comes to sarcasm. I can’t accept sarcasm from a complete stranger. Especially NOT from this type of people.

Anyways... from my point of view... I would like to comment on his 2nd and 3rd statement which he post in his profile.

Judging from the statement that he made... I can assume that he was either once a typical fanatical mat or is still one or have had friends/acquaintances who were fanatics. That doesn’t make him more experienced and pointing out to others about all those fanatical shits. I don’t think he’s worthy of the sarcasm he spits to people around him whom he knows/don’t know and telling them off when he’s one himself. From my point... he’s like a pot calling a kettle black. I’ve just had enough of these people.

I once had a friend... similar case as the one I’ve pointed out earlier, who’s no longer a friend of mine coz he doesn’t deserve to be in that spot in my friends list. Whatever that came out from his mouth were all bullshits and he’s living in his own little pathetic world. And if only I had that chance to be all sarcastic right smack at his face... I swear I’ll be the most satisfied person.

I wished that one day I would encounter another one of these type.... How nice it would be to stab them with the deadliest weapon of all, which is the tongue.

But of course I know it’s not allowed in my religion.
You just can’t.

Too bad it all had to end here... in this blog of mine.

If there is a minah/mat reading this...
I’m sorry that you chose to read till this far and had to swallow all these... NOT.
Coz I’m just stating the fact.

Yours sincerely.
ShImA

♥ disguised at { 3:21 AM }

ShImA

♥ disguised at { 6:40 PM }

Mak cik: Best ker gaji pat sini?
Me: ok larh..
Mak cik: Maseh skola kan..
Me: aah..
Mak cik: Part-time kan.. kire ok larh tu...
Me: *just smiled at her*
Mak cik: Ni da tunang-tunang ke belom?
Me: huh? Belom...
Mak cik: Nanti cik tolong carikan eh...

Ape saje larh mak cik ni... nk cari-carikan segala... haiyo... tk payah susah2 mak cik oi... LOL.
ShImA

♥ disguised at { 2:29 AM }

So much disappointment.

♥ disguised at { 12:37 AM }

I’m sort of amazed by your capability in casting that charm of yours to others. And ya.. the fact that you’re able to make others not be angry at you when they really are, is undeniable. Really.
But the way you treat me just pissed me off and really upsets me.
Maybe I’m not used to that kind of treatment.
Maybe I don't expect it to come from you.
So. Thanks.
ShImA

♥ disguised at { 12:49 AM }

After 10 years (plus minus), I finally get to see my long ‘lost’ cousins, aunt and uncle (father’s side), the other day. I’ve always wanted to see them but have not been given the chance. People changed so much over the years, the reason, I didn’t even recognise them. It was a shocking experience. Nazri, same age as me, looked so different. Way different. It took me quite some time to confirm with myself if that is really him that I see. I stared long enough at his name and tried to match his face before I accept the fact that it is really him. He’s in NS now. Nadia, his sister, is pretty. She always is. She’s now in NTU.
Well... I still have others whom I’ve yet to see.
ShImA

♥ disguised at { 5:25 PM }

Where Are You??

ShImMy

♥ disguised at { 5:46 PM }

I think it's only fair if you receive the same treatment...
Well..
If you want it that way...
I’ll play it your way.
What goes around comes back around.
Having to constantly anticipate just suck.
You've no idea....
pfft.
ShImA
When People Can't Take You At Your Worst,
They Don't Deserve You At Your Best.
Just disappointed.

♥ disguised at { 1:37 AM }

Overwhelming emotions got me choked upon unuttered words.
ShImA

♥ disguised at { 2:44 PM }

Behind those smiles and laughter.
Maybe I’m in denial.
Maybe I overestimate my capabilities.
Maybe I underestimate e lot of things.
Maybe I'm too optimistic over a lot of things.
Maybe there are too many things to handle.
Maybe I got way too easily distracted.

Maybe I need some time alone.
Maybe I want someone to hear me out.
Maybe I craved for some encouragement/motivation.
Maybe I need a shoulder to cry on.
Maybe I need a comforting hug.
Maybe I need someone to guide me back to where I’m supposed to be.

To sort myself out so that everything comes back to where it was before.
Hoping that the complications will not become too complicated for me to handle.
But sympathy is not what I want.

Fuck.
Because I’m starting to lose it.
Or maybe I’m already losing it.
I’m struggling to keep up.
ShImA

coz i'm so confused.

♥ disguised at { 12:59 AM }

Walk the talk.
When you can’t hold on to your words,
Don’t bother saying it in the first place.
When you’re just saying it for the sake of saying,
Don’t bother telling it in the first place.
When promises made are meant to be broken,
Then, don’t waste your effort making one.
ShImA

♥ disguised at { 3:28 PM }

I’m losing it right from the beginning.
I’m losing it even more as time passed.
I’ve yet to visualise the end of it.
Like what I’ve always did...
To go with the flow.
ShImA

♥ disguised at { 1:07 AM }

the unique one

23mAy1990
fAcEb0ok
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Living life to the fullest
Is when you can go with the flow
Knowing that the journey
May not be smooth
But there are no challenges
Too tough you can't overcome

Complications are parts and parcels of life

Treasured Friendship
Friendship is all about putting in effort.
As long as we do our part
Friendship will stay blissful.
Friendship will never go without arguments and disagreements.
Showing care and concern,
Isn’t only about throwing words all around,
But portraying it.
Some may be good with words
But it is the action that matters.

Cloud Nine
Whenever the thoughts of you
Lingers in my mind,
I grew restless.
The urge to see you grew stronger.
Even if it's only for a short while.
Whenever I picture you in my mind,
A smile is drawn across my face.
Whenever I imagine you in my mind,
I sensed butterflies in my stomach.
Whenever I think of you,
Exuberance strikes.
Whenever I dreamt of you,
It eased the soul of mine.
Whenever I saw you,
Satisfaction is what I felt.

Her Love Story
My addiction to you
Grew stronger each day.
A day without you,
Rips off a portion of my sanity.
I see the sparkle in your eyes.
I feel the warmth in your smile.
I sense the truth in your words.
I believe the sincerity in you.
What more could I possibly ask for.
The heart doesn’t lie.
Its mind boggling that it turns out this way.
Coz all I want is you.
Missing you can turn from torture to pleasure
Only if you're missing me too...

Opposite Attraction.
You’re the one I was hoping for.
The fantasies I made up.
That I thought I could just dream upon.
Knowing my chances are slim.
Yet, silently I craved for you.
Then out of the blue
You appeared to fulfil the wildest dream of mine.
You’re the cause of my sleepless night,
The reasons for all the anticipation.
The thoughts of you lingering in my mind
Sends butterflies in my stomach
A smile across my face
And the happiness to my soul.
Simply IRRESISTIBLE.

*~*^dUdEtTez*~*
Aida Alena AmALinA AmeErA CeLiNe ♥CiK iKa DidIe Fi0nA FiZa GeNgBeE GeRmAiNe HaIzA HiDaYaH hUmAiRaH KhALiLah KhALidAh KiNaH JuLyHa LiNg HuI L0uIsuRe MiC MiChELLe MiN HuI NaNa QiM QuRaIsHiA RaHmAh SaLLy ShAhIdAh ♥SiS ♥SiTicUz
*~*^dUdeZ*~*
AnDy AmEeR ApEz AsYraF ♥AzMicUz BeRnArD FiRdAuS HaFiZ KhAz MarK NiChoLas NuNmAn SaM SkY TeDdY
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