Yesterday’s performance turned out great despite undergoing some drama. We were on the verge of backing out. I was pissed off and disappointed by the attitude of some of my crew members actually. Maybe they weren’t mature enough. All of them are two years younger than me. I just cannot understand why we’re so concerned about what people will think about us and being all pessimistic about things that have yet to happen. If you have the passion to dance you’ll do whatever it takes to get there without having the slightest doubt and leaving all those negative thoughts behind and don’t give a damn about what people will say. Thanks to those who stood by us, those who urge us to just give it a try, even though they were strangers to us, after all it is the experience that counts. I’m amazed by the support they gave especially this guy from LNT.
Ouh wells. There were a lot of people cheering for us despite of the cocked up song. Those motivations, cheers and encouragement from the crowd who want us to continue even without the music, left a great impact. It is really a scene to remember.
I was disappointed with the attitude of my sis during the practice we had. She asked me to join them for this competition and I agreed as they were short of manpower. She was portraying this ugly attitude of hers which I find disturbing and I actually regretted becoming part of the crew.. She asked her friends to teach me. Well, I’m fine with it. No biggie. They taught me well but incomplete. Later on, I noticed that my sis was actually reluctant to coach me with the whole dance routine. She repeatedly uttered this statement throughout our practicing days, “You teach her. I don’t want to teach. I’m tired.” I decided to let that suspicion go by making my own excuses in my mind that, maybe she’s just exhausted. I got pissed off by her remarks but I remained silent. Assumptions shouldn’t be made as they are bound to deceive. But then later, I realised my stand was right. Mind you, I ONLY had 3 days of practice and the routines taught weren’t even complete until that sat midnight.We don’t even have group practice. Everyone’s busy with their own thing. She didn’t even bother to let me know of the details of the practice until I sms-ed her. She was even reluctant to even tell me what we will be wearing on the day itself. She ignored when I asked the first time. I didn’t care less. I asked her again on the last day of practice and here’s what she replied, “I don’t know.” I was irritated but I kept it low. And I asked her another time when we’re about to head home and she said, “That one later can prepare. “. I got frustrated and I kept a distance away from her to prevent myself from getting out of control. That very morning, then she told me what we were supposed to be wearing. I raised my voice but at the same time restricting my temper from getting out of hand. I hate it when the essential information was being told last minute. I hate this attitude of hers. I had to call Hafiz and Rodney up to bring what is needed.
I'm not trying to bad-mouth. somethings are just unbearable and i need to express myself.
Why is it that I feel very inferior even though im the eldest??
i hate orders from the young ones because it affect my dignity.
Anyhoos, I want to thank those who actually came to support. After the whole event, I went off with Hafiz and Rodney and we head for pool at LP. =DD It has been very long time since we set our foot at that place. Luck was on my side. After that we head home. I slept throughout the long journey back home.
Today is already the first day of the fasting month. Time flies. It seemed that we had barely begun our year and it’s already September. Tight and busy schedules might be the cause of it. Anyways, I really hoped that all my bad behaviours that I committed before will be stopped during this holy month of Ramadhan. For over one billion Muslims throughout the world, Ramadhan is a special month of the year. During the month of Ramadhan, Muslims fast from dawn to sunset every day. It is a time for inner reflection, devotion to God and self-control. This is the month where we Muslims cleanse our souls and minds.
My bad habits have to stop. Who knows you’ll witness a new me after this fasting month??Being a better Muslim is my aim. God willing. Everything has to be kept low and controlled to respect this month and I hope to do more good deeds. Somehow the atmosphere now is different. Ouh wells. I want to read up the Quran which I left it untouched for almost a year. I said I want to actually read it but performing it is another question, procrastination is what I’m suffering from. I love fasting month. Not because Hari Raya is coming, but the benefits we attained from it.
To aLL mUsLiMs 0uT tHeRe:
SeLaMaT MeNuNaIkAn IbAdAh pUaSa.
SeMoGa kITa dApAt TeMpuHi SeGaLa CaBaRaN dAn DugAaN yAnG dIbErIkAn dEnGaN taBah dAn SeM0gA kItA dApAt mEnJaLaNi iBadAH pUaSa dEnGan pEnUh KeSabaRan dAn KeCeKaLan dI bULan yAnG pEnUh BaRakAh iNi.
