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Saturday, January 24, 2009
In the middle of the tutorial, I stood. The room was silent. Mr Lim looked at me. Me: Your thing very small larh cher... I went to sit next to Beth right in front. And the room was filled with laughter the minute I finished my sentence, mainly from the guys. I laughed along with them coz I know what they were thinking. I’m not sure if you people actually got it. It is guys stuff... the horny ones will understand I think...hahaha..oops... BUT... I wasn’t referring to anything like that.... I was referring to his extremely small prints on the transparency coz I couldn’t see clearly and I was seated right at the back. & the boys being boys...they got the wrong idea... I’m not sure if Mr Lim got it... I just LOVE his lessons!!! He’s THE BEST! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ My Painful Confessions. It is easier said than done. Until you were in this situation, you won’t understand. I felt very much harassed yet I’m unable to speak up. I guess I couldn't take this anymore. The following will be explicit. Don’t forget to catch your breath. Hold your anger. Control your emotions. I don’t know what I should feel right now. Should I be angry? Should I be embarrassed? Should I be upset? Should I even feel anything at all? If you were to be in my shoes, how would you react? How would you react if the person is your own friend??? If someone were to get horny with you...would you mind? If someone were to interfere with your personal stuff...would you mind? If someone were to speak to you about all those dirty things... what would you do? A friend whom I’ve known for a few years comes and chats with me and being extremely horny. He wanted hugs from me. He has thoughts of raping me, breaking my virginity. He asked about my bra size. He told me not to wear one when I'm at home. He even asked me not to mind him being horny towards me, only to him. And all that he could talk about is nothing but the horny stuffs. I could curse throughout my entry like I used to whenever somebody triggers my nerves. But what’s the point? What good does it bring? I’m not denying people do get the wrong impression of me, from the way I dress or even from my pictures. Yes I may be hot and sexy and appears to be horny or a flirt or whatever you can think of me. But that shouldn’t be an excuse for you to take advantage of me. I can be very open-minded but this has gone way too far. Do you actually think that all hot babes you see could think of nothing else but horny stuff? What makes you think that I would sacrifice my virginity on you? What right have you got to say all those things to me? You're not even my boyfriend to interfere with anything that is way too personal. Do you actually think I’m that low and uncivilised?? I'm not those Changi Village girls, neither am I those Geylang girls. You still have the cheek to ask me not to mind you being all horny. I thought you’ve changed. I thought you were smart enough to not make the same mistake. That respect I have for you because you were my friend is thinning and it might disappear anytime soon. My family thought me well enough even though my religious knowledge may not be as deep as my cousins or friends. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ My mum pointed out something that she hasn’t for a long time. It’s been a while.. I’m touched. Really. I think that’s probably the reason some things that’s been happening lately, reasons for my lost soul... Nevertheless, I’m still grateful that she’s my mom. I’ll always love her although I’m not comfortable showing it physically, unlike my sister. Ouh my... I’m getting all sentimental. Speaking of which, this reminds me of Priya’s mom. The day when I decided to walk home from Jurong East Library all the way to my house, sending Priya off first. It was considered quite late if you were to walk home at that time. Her mom was just concern about my safety. She even scolded Priya for allowing me to accompany her. Her mom scolded her because of me. It wasn’t her fault at all. I was stubborn enough to wait till she bought her food. Priya learnt her lesson not to leak out anything about me walking home again. I mean, which mom isn’t worried when she got to know when her daughter’s/son’s friend, whose a girl, decided to walk home alone at night over a long distance? NONE. I just needed the fresh air to ease my chaotic mind. ShImA ♥ disguised at { 3:29 AM } |
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