Unbearable Suffocation.
Reluctant to head home straight away,
The 4km walk I deliberately took
Although completely shagged,
I persevered.
Kept too much things to myself
Pressurized by the thoughts that came in random
Causing me to have that night walk home
All alone.
With no one by my side
I felt the slight freedom

I walk down that similar route
But a longer one than usual
Taking my own sweet time
The exhaustion is no longer there.
Inhaling the cool, fresh air I’ve been longing for.
The night breeze that brought ease to my chaotic mind.

Friends, School, Family, Life, Religion.

Tears welled in my eyes
Preventing it from rolling over my cheeks
I held back the tears.
Refraining myself from breaking down

Contradiction.
Statements I got almost frequently.
“I don’t see the stress in you.”
“You seemed to be a stress-free person.”
How true is that?
I’m wondering myself.
No doubt,
Flattered by the assumption
The reason behind that calmness
Is that the word stress don’t exist.
Tendency for being pretty much laid back
And always going with the flow type.

Masking off every trouble I faced well.
It couldn’t be easily be read off my face.
I don’t see the reason to share it either
Secretive I am.

He said,
“You have to know where your passion lies”
That sets me thinking.
Fully aware,
The non-existence for the passion
The passion for whatever I’m doing now.
I just don’t see it coming through.
But I just go with the flow.
The reason for being neither here nor there
The reason why I’m always in between
In between the exceptionally smart and the average
It’s exhausting.
Exhausting enough having to constantly compete
Knowing the chances are slim
Yet it’s not impossible.
Confuse enough?
I’m as confused as you.

Inclination of expectations,
Accumulating assignments,
Unfinished project work,
Upcoming tests around the corner
Is driving me insane
Yet, it’s still bearable...I think....

Why is it that I'm always being optimistic?
Or rather too optimistic??
I just don't understand myself sometimes.
Ouh god.

As a family jogged past me
Reminding me of my late grandmother
It’s been quite a while
I’m aware that I’m drifting away
The things she nurtured in me,
All the advice I used to heed closely,
The things I used to practice,
Have gone down the drain
Swallowing back what I once swore upon.
ShImA

Gone head over heels on you.
I wished you knew...
Hoping that you feel the same..
Fully aware,
Hope will remain as one.
Continue to dream upon it.
It won't happen.
I'm just waiting for disappointment.
That love I craved for shall remain as a fantasy.

♥ disguised at { 1:34 AM }

the unique one

23mAy1990
fAcEb0ok
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Living life to the fullest
Is when you can go with the flow
Knowing that the journey
May not be smooth
But there are no challenges
Too tough you can't overcome

Complications are parts and parcels of life

Treasured Friendship
Friendship is all about putting in effort.
As long as we do our part
Friendship will stay blissful.
Friendship will never go without arguments and disagreements.
Showing care and concern,
Isn’t only about throwing words all around,
But portraying it.
Some may be good with words
But it is the action that matters.

Cloud Nine
Whenever the thoughts of you
Lingers in my mind,
I grew restless.
The urge to see you grew stronger.
Even if it's only for a short while.
Whenever I picture you in my mind,
A smile is drawn across my face.
Whenever I imagine you in my mind,
I sensed butterflies in my stomach.
Whenever I think of you,
Exuberance strikes.
Whenever I dreamt of you,
It eased the soul of mine.
Whenever I saw you,
Satisfaction is what I felt.

Her Love Story
My addiction to you
Grew stronger each day.
A day without you,
Rips off a portion of my sanity.
I see the sparkle in your eyes.
I feel the warmth in your smile.
I sense the truth in your words.
I believe the sincerity in you.
What more could I possibly ask for.
The heart doesn’t lie.
Its mind boggling that it turns out this way.
Coz all I want is you.
Missing you can turn from torture to pleasure
Only if you're missing me too...

Opposite Attraction.
You’re the one I was hoping for.
The fantasies I made up.
That I thought I could just dream upon.
Knowing my chances are slim.
Yet, silently I craved for you.
Then out of the blue
You appeared to fulfil the wildest dream of mine.
You’re the cause of my sleepless night,
The reasons for all the anticipation.
The thoughts of you lingering in my mind
Sends butterflies in my stomach
A smile across my face
And the happiness to my soul.
Simply IRRESISTIBLE.

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